My name is Laura and I am a smoker.
A smoker who is trying to quit. And man, is it hard.
It's not so much the cigarettes that are hard to quit, it's the breaking the habits that I have surrounding them.
I have a coffee, and I have a smoke.
I chat on the phone, and I have a smoke.
I get stressed, and I have a smoke. Or many.
The Farmer and I are on a quitting journey. He is much better at it than me. I think it's because he works. So doesn't have as much time to spend on the phone or drinking coffee, and probably isn't as addicted to those habits as I am.
We made a pact, when we bought the town house, that it was to be a non smoking area. So far this has failed. Que the stress related smoking.
BUT we have made some achievements on our quitting path, and are on the way to keeping our promise to ourselves, and really, its more of a promise to our children. We never want them to have to look after us, to care for us because we have Emphysema - best case scenario, or bury us because of a stupid lifestyle choice that we made. And that is the reality of it. A lifestyle choice that we have made that is slowly harming us, potentially killing us.
We have dramatically cut back. The Farmer can do the whole cold turkey thing. I simply cannot. But when I cannot, he cannot. Its a vicious cycle and has caused many an argument.
I come from a family of smokers. Sometimes I think it is in my genetics. But I know it's not.
I have watched many of them quit. And many of them try. And many of them fail.
I have friends who use the 'I know such and such and he smoked since he was 14 and it never killed him'.
He was lucky. And I bet he never knew the full potential of his body, because lets face it, it may not kill you, but it does have a dramatic impact on your health,and in turn, the people that love you.
Is it really worth it? I think not.
I am beating smoking, before smoking beats me.
Join me on the path to quitting. Visit the Quit website for some great resources, plans and advice. I love the 3 step plan. It shows you how much money you are wasting, and what's going into your lungs! And then helps you work out a plan. Or visit your GP. There are many ways to quit smoking, you just have to find the right one for you.
Now to find a way to break my habits. Be warned, they may be replaced with blogging. That wouldn't be so bad would it?